My dearest parent

As for me, parent is the most precious thing Allah gives me. 

They're a Gift from Allah to me. 

So I am to them. 

I have 9 siblings. Yes it's unusual to have so many siblings. 

but sometimes this amazed me too. 

How did my parent could nurtured their children very well? 

They're amazing person. They deserve an honour and respect.  

But still. 

I can't respect and honour them as they deserve. 

I'm very despicable. I'm disgrace. 

Really, I tend to follow my feelings and anger. 

There's so many time i hurt them with my words. 

When i did it, i know it's wrong. 

You know, I'm human. 

Sometimes we do something even we know that is wrong.  

I just couldn't control myself. 

My parent didn't express if they hurt. 

They bottle them inside. 

Mak, ayah...

I'm sorry for being a worst child. 

I want to change this. 

I don't want this 'me'. 

I hate it. 

Everytime i think about the things i did to both of you. 

I felt like i did not deserve to be your child. 

But of course, i can't say that way. 

Allah has created me. 

i believe everything happen to me and in this world are for some reason. 

So, Allah made me also for many reasons. 

-- Thanks God for my wonderful parent -- 

Empty heart

               I feel empty. This time really... 

         My heart like an empty can in bin. 

I feel like something is missing 

I must find what the thing is 

I try... 

maybe it's just a boredom cascaded over me. 

so, i listened to music, instrumental...

facebook-ing, rummaged around for new and interesting information,

reading a lot of books...Reading is my ruling passion. But still i found nothing from them. 

Yeah, it is interesting story books but it's just for a while. 

But for a long-term of period i don't think reading is a good idea. 

I can't read 24/7, of course. it's absurd. 

In the facebook, all my friend posting about religious stuff. 

seems like they know a lot of things about Islam. 

not like me. 

I'm Muslim. 

but i hardly put any words about Islamic stuff. 

The all thing i post are about me, about life, my thoughts...

the fact is no one care what you think of, your thoughts. 

I completely far far away from my God. 

The one who creates me. 

my Lord.  

I'm lost. 

Lost into a deep jungle. it's like impossible for me to find a way out. 

Dear myself, still it's not too late to find the way out. 

You must search for it.  

Come on, wake up!  

Live is only once. Once you dead you can't open you eyes anymore.

You can't back to live anymore. The soil, the white cloth, the animals that would eat your flesh would be your only companion.

Then, It's too late for you to regret and seek for forgiveness. 

So, what're you waiting for? 

"Death" comes unexpectedly. 

it didn't wait for you till you happy enough or rich enough. 

It might be as well comes for us when we still in our journey. 

Or maybe after a breath, or maybe after a blink of an eye or maybe a second after this. 

We can't tell. 

So, the only thing you could do is be prepared. 

Prepare for a death. 

-- From me, to myself -- 

Doggies~~

Dogs and cats are very cute.  

Yes, they are. 

Dog is very synonym with .Loyalty. 

Dog is one of the animal species to die for. 

Well, i own a cat. Oh, i mean cats. 

2 Silly cats. Siamese breed and 'whatsit' breed. (I guess it's just ordinary kampung cat). 

The Siamese one is male. I named him Puteh. 

The whatsit one is female. Well, i don't have the exact name for her. Poor cat. =( 

These 2 silly completely disloyal. Of course not, they're cat. CAT. 

We should expect nothing much from cats. 

Cats can't be trained how to sit-stay-speak. They're the king in their owner house. 

Their needs must be fulfilled or they won't stop meowing.  

This what cats make me sick.  

But still cats have their own fans. 

i bet because they're loving, pampered. 

Sometimes i found that cats have natural humor, effortlessly. 

So, what makes me adore dog so much? 

I don't know when i'm starting to love dog. 

I'm a Muslim, so it's kinda weird for me to love dog. 

There's nothing wrong with the dog. Muslims can still adopt a dog, but there's a boundaries. 

Okay, i will not talking about the boundaries here. 

I know a lot of dogs type. (Even you don't want to read them, i'm still gonna to mention them.)

Basset hound, Pit bull terrier, American staffordshire terrier, cocker spaniel,

Tibetan Mastiff, Bull Mastiff, boxer, Whippet, Lab Retriever, Golden Retriever, Rottweiler, Border 

Collie (The most intelligent dog), Poodle, Afghan Hound (The most dumbest dog, i guess), Jack Russell Terrier, Pug, English 

Bulldog, Caucasian Shepherd, German Shepherd, Siberian Husky, Chihuahua (God, I hate 

chihuahua), Argentina Dogo, Chow Chow, Akita, Shar-pei, blood hound, Saint Bernard.....

..........man, i need a whole week to list all type of breed.

-- God, my hands starting to cramp --

If i have a chance to adopt a dog, I will choose Rottweiler (The badass guard dog), and Caucasian Shepherd...wait! Caucasian Shepherd?? Hell no. This type maybe the most badass guard dog. 

But, hey..i'm a crouch potato. I would not wasting my time by grooming some bastard fur. 

If you adopt a Caucasian Shepherd, the furs will scatter your entire house. No. no. I can't tolerate with furs. I mean, not with animal which has excessive furs.  

Border Collie is the smart dog (i may consider this type also). So, it would be easy to train. 

 they were great with kids and make wonderful family pets. 

But...no. no. Definitely not. 

This is herding dog. Very active and athletic. 

They require considerable daily physical exercise and mental stimulation. 

If not, the can be very destructive. No way!  

So, I would prefer a Rottweiler. :) 

If, if...if...i have a chance to adopt a dog... :s

Shopping spree!!

I love to shop. Hell yeah. But i amazed my mom and siblings (my dad is not included). 

I love to do shopping but i'll not wasting my money with something like

clothes, handbag, shoes and whatsoever..

and..yeah, from here you can guess what type of person am i. 

--I'm not a fashionable type-- 

so, for those who're Metro-sexual...i'm not a person you're looking for. 

if yes then you got a wrong person. hehe. No offence. 

Well, i rather spending my money with Books. 

Oh, god. You don't know how much i'm in love with books. 

Book shops turn me on. Ooppss! 

Last week, i went to KL and Selangor and I have a GREAT time. 

What a BLAST to spend a whole day in the book shops. Unfortunately, i live in Kuala Terengganu. 

So, there isn't much of book store here.  

I guess the people in Terengganu are not into reading. What makes me say that.

Well, there's a shop which is called Pustaka Seri Intan. The shop sell a lot of books. 

All type of books. Revision and exercise books for all subjects, Islamic books, Malay novels and also English novel. English novels are what i'm looking for. 

Well, many books there draw my attention. Of course i can't buy them all in one time. The shop is hardly sell English novel. Okay. I go to the shop today, and when i come there in 3 weeks, the same books are still there. From my opinion, most of terengganunians (I invented this word but i don't know if it's work) are likely more into Malay novels. So there's no point of opening a big book store here like MPH, Popular, Bookxcess or Kinokuniya (I rather crawling from my place to go to this heavens. I mean heaven for an avid reader). 

Last week, i went to the Bookxcess in Amcorpmall (Gosh, the price of the books are ridiculously cheap) and Popular books store in Amcorpmall and Jusco. 

Well, I discovered my new trait. Shophaholic. I'm a shophaholic in a different way. 

Without take even a one glance to my purse, i kept reaching the books. Struggling to keep the books in my arm from sliding onto the floor. 

and...what a surprise!!! jeng...jeng..jeng...!! 

--- RM 300.00 --- 

haha, thanks god there's RM 300 in my purse.  

Guess how many books i bought. 

-- 10 BOOKS --  

It's unusual and abnormal for me to buy 10 books. I mean in A DAY! 

Holy crap! 

there it is.....

            Hey, i found that i used to talk about others in my blog. Every time i try to burst out my brain's nerve to spill an idea, i ended up by talking about others. Seriously, it's really a bad attitude. but, i just can't stand some people who......(there it is, it's come again.).

*take a deep breath*

Okay now. Normal mood.

Okay, the only thing i want to say here is every time i want to do a story, i ended up telling a crappy thing. I completely have zero talent in story-telling. The all things i know is FACTS. *sigh*. I just know how to write the fact. My sister once told me that i have no talent in writing. ----> AGREE.

but this is my chance to boost my skill in writing. So, just let me try, okay.

Top 10 Worst Tech Predictions of All Time

1. "Next christmas the iPod will be dean, finished, gone, kaput." Sir Alan Sugar, 2005 

2. "No need for a computer at home". Ken alsen, founder of Digital Equipment, 1977. 

3. "Nuclear-powered vacuum cleaners will probably be a reality within ten years." Alex Lewyt, president of lewyt Corp vacuum company, 1955. 

4. "TV won't last because people will soon get tired of staring at plywood box every night." Darryl Zanuck, 1946. 

5. "there will never be a bigger plane built." Boeing engineering, 1933, after the maiden flight of a ten-seater Boeing 247.  

6. "We stand on the threshold of rocket mail." US postmaster general Arthur Summerfield, 1959.

7. "Nobody would ever need more than 640 kilobytes of memory on their personal computer." Bill Gates, 1981.

8. "The Americans have need of the telephone, but we do not. We have plenty of messenger boys." Sir William Preece, chief engineer of the British Post Office, 1878.

9. "Spam will be solved." Bill Gates, 2004.

10. "X-rays will prove to be a hoax" Lord Kelvin, president of the UK's Royal Society, 1883

- Reader's Digest May 2009 - 

It's All About English

i will be taking MUET next year. Speaking and writing will be hard for me. Yeah, you know how broken i am in English. My target is Band 5. But it seems ridiculous with this broken-English even to get Band 4. So, i must put extra effort on speaking and writing. I read a tonne of books. i mean A LOT. including newspaper. I read read read as much as i can because my English will get better only by reading and speaking. Practice speaking with friends, teachers or family is an effective way to boost your confidence to speak English.

Actually, it is very hard for me to write my blog in english. My confidence to use English is very low and almost none until i found a fact states that only 16% native speaker used PERFECT English. So, what about 84%? I guess, maybe they're worst than me or at the same level as me. If that so, nothing to be ashamed of. Just do what do you want. I did practice speaking with my friends. But some of them annoyed when it is my turned to speak. They just rolling around their eyes. You know what? That type of people....As for me.......kinda...kampung-minded. Their English...of course worst than me but they didn't put their effort on that. When it comes to muet (speaking and writing) class. They kept asking me non-stop about the vocabulary, what word they could use to make sentence like this...like this..like this... They kept asking me what should they speak when it comes to speaking. And now, they really annoyed me! That.is.really.annoying. Ok. let's change the topic. It's not good when you keep talking about people when we too did a lot of mistakes or maybe we did the same thing as they are. Okay, just shut it up.

Let's back to the topic. English. Not how people annoyed you. So....urmmm....how on earth i could forget about what am i gonna to talk?? ridiculous. Okay, that's all for now.

 

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Jodi Picoult: novels about family, relationships, love, & more

Hey, Don't you think your english is so bad?

Yeah, yeah...i know, i know. You don't need to remind me again. I know very well my english is suck grammatically even some of the sentence structure are distorted. And i won't apologise for that because i know that my English will get better as long as i put my effort onto it. You know what, at least i try! So, if my bad-english is an eyesore to you then take off your eyes out of here.

My Mistakes, My Future.

Form 6....actually i never expected that i'll attending form 6. You know...i mean, i've a normal dreams like to be a doctor, engineer or even scientist (juz..what the hell am i thinking, i've never score A in chemistry!). As for me...to be doctor, engineer, scientist and whatsoever professional careers are a child's dream. I mean child's dream always general. As we grown up...we learn more about life and starting from there, we knew that the career prospect far wider than we expected. 

Taking a science stream in form 4&5 is a BIG mistake i made. Science stream constitutes of Biology, Chemistry (The theory are unacceptable), Physics and Add math (first time i pass in trial SPM exam). At the time i made a decision, i knew that i'm not good in science subjects. i'm more to RIGHT brain. But, i was Influenced by my friends and family. You know what are in my mind at that time? It's just like..."Hey, all of them were taking science, so why am I thinking of taking art stream? If they can then I can." So, the know-nothing of me decided to take part in science.  

At first, form 6 never crossed in my mind since one day, my dad suggested i choose form 6 instead of matriculation, foundation or diploma programmes. Honestly, the suggestion turned me down and was very disappointing. I feel like my dad belittled me and underestimate my potential. I never agreed to form 6 until one day i did some research about form 6. I found that form 6 is more interesting. Once you in form 6 that means one of your leg is in university. If i choose form 6 then i will face STPM or (Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia/ Malaysian Higher School Certificate).STPM  is a pre-university examination taken by students in Malaysia. It was formerly known as the Higher School Certificate (HSC). The HSC was the precursor to the GCE A levels in the UK, and is still the name of the pre-university examination in some states in Australia.  

Form 6 is separated into two levels, the first half year is Lower Sixth Form (Tingkatan Enam Rendah/Bawah) and Upper Sixth Form (Tingkatan Enam Atas) is the other whole year. A major difference in Form 6 compared to other pre-university courses is that the medium of instruction is in Bahasa Melayu the national language of Malaysia. Hence it is not popular among international students and its popularity is also waning among local Malaysians students as more parents are sending their children to A-levels, foundation or diploma programs. Another major disadvantage is that it only has one intake in the year. 

Now...i get it. God knows. God knows more than we do. Now, i can learn from the mistake. From there i learnt that experience is simply the name we give our mistakes. From the mistake i know my true self and my limitations. The successful man will profit from his mistakes and try again in a different way. :)  

My Favourite book.

Speechless. That's all i could say after i finished this book. I burst into tears in page 4! Can you imagine how I managed to finish this story into the last page?! Tears are words the heart can't express. This book is highly recommended to those who're searching for the best book to be read. Read it first, then judge by yourself.  

Synopsis : Maybe it was a grandparent, or a teacher or a colleague. Someone older, patient and wise, who understood you when you were young and searching, and gave you sound advice to help you make your way through it. For Mitch Albom, that person was Morrie Schwartz, his college professor from nearly 20 years ago. Maybe, like Mitch, you lost track of this mentor as you made your way, and the insights faded. Wouldn't you like to see that person again, ask the bigger questions that still haunt you? Mitch Albom had that second chance. He rediscovered Morrie in the last months of the older man's life. Knowing he was dying of ALS - or motor neurone disease - Morrie visited Mitch in his study every Tuesday, just as they used to back in college. Their rekindled relationship turned into one final "class": lessons in how to live. This is a chronicle of their time together, through which Mitch shares Morrie's lasting gift with the world.  

I can't believe they made a movie about this. After I finished this book, I said to myself "Damn, they should make a movie. And they did!" 

A TEACHER TO THE LAST: BATTLING FATAL ILLNESS, A PROFESSOR USES DEATH TO SHOW US HOW TO LIVE

If you have knowledge, let others light their candles at it.

"If you have knowledge, let others light their candles at it". The word that can be conclude is 'Sharing'. Definitely sharing implies a motivational factor that leads people to feel good, to identify with those who somehow help them in there growth, not only freely share their knowledge, feeling, kindness and give you everything pro strength always maintain high self-esteem. We'll do our best in order to give the best to others. 

We have the knowledge about something, don't just let them decomposed. Remember that, the more we share, the more we gain. As we share our knowledge we can enhance the understanding about the subject more. - Nothing less from sharing. Those that know do, those that understand teach. 

The expert at anything was once a beginner

I'm the beginner in blogging. Actually, i'm not really interested in blogging even 'read' the blog. So, why i'm starting to write a blog? The answer is "I want to improve my English". I found that blogging is also one of the way to enrich and boost your english. Of course, i'm bad in english grammatically. But, i must put into action now! And I also found that blog is actually interesting. Blogs, in an internet environment, can be an excellent way of sharing knowledge. As we know, reading always improve our knowledge. I know that my English skills are not so good as other bloggers. I didn’t take this as my weakness, instead I thought when days go on, I can improve my English skills through blogging and reading. I am sure that blogging has improved many people’s English skills.

Blogging is a practice for writing, when you write and preview your article you can find even a simple mistakes, which will slowly improve your writing skills. Through my blog all i want to say is As you read more, you gain knowledge more. I read to find topics and to learn more.