My dearest parent

As for me, parent is the most precious thing Allah gives me. 

They're a Gift from Allah to me. 

So I am to them. 

I have 9 siblings. Yes it's unusual to have so many siblings. 

but sometimes this amazed me too. 

How did my parent could nurtured their children very well? 

They're amazing person. They deserve an honour and respect.  

But still. 

I can't respect and honour them as they deserve. 

I'm very despicable. I'm disgrace. 

Really, I tend to follow my feelings and anger. 

There's so many time i hurt them with my words. 

When i did it, i know it's wrong. 

You know, I'm human. 

Sometimes we do something even we know that is wrong.  

I just couldn't control myself. 

My parent didn't express if they hurt. 

They bottle them inside. 

Mak, ayah...

I'm sorry for being a worst child. 

I want to change this. 

I don't want this 'me'. 

I hate it. 

Everytime i think about the things i did to both of you. 

I felt like i did not deserve to be your child. 

But of course, i can't say that way. 

Allah has created me. 

i believe everything happen to me and in this world are for some reason. 

So, Allah made me also for many reasons. 

-- Thanks God for my wonderful parent --