Empty heart

               I feel empty. This time really... 

         My heart like an empty can in bin. 

I feel like something is missing 

I must find what the thing is 

I try... 

maybe it's just a boredom cascaded over me. 

so, i listened to music, instrumental...

facebook-ing, rummaged around for new and interesting information,

reading a lot of books...Reading is my ruling passion. But still i found nothing from them. 

Yeah, it is interesting story books but it's just for a while. 

But for a long-term of period i don't think reading is a good idea. 

I can't read 24/7, of course. it's absurd. 

In the facebook, all my friend posting about religious stuff. 

seems like they know a lot of things about Islam. 

not like me. 

I'm Muslim. 

but i hardly put any words about Islamic stuff. 

The all thing i post are about me, about life, my thoughts...

the fact is no one care what you think of, your thoughts. 

I completely far far away from my God. 

The one who creates me. 

my Lord.  

I'm lost. 

Lost into a deep jungle. it's like impossible for me to find a way out. 

Dear myself, still it's not too late to find the way out. 

You must search for it.  

Come on, wake up!  

Live is only once. Once you dead you can't open you eyes anymore.

You can't back to live anymore. The soil, the white cloth, the animals that would eat your flesh would be your only companion.

Then, It's too late for you to regret and seek for forgiveness. 

So, what're you waiting for? 

"Death" comes unexpectedly. 

it didn't wait for you till you happy enough or rich enough. 

It might be as well comes for us when we still in our journey. 

Or maybe after a breath, or maybe after a blink of an eye or maybe a second after this. 

We can't tell. 

So, the only thing you could do is be prepared. 

Prepare for a death. 

-- From me, to myself --