my 10 things...oh, 20...no. no. 25. i mean...30 things to do and to have in lifetime.

will post later. still thinking actually. teehee.

*Goals*

Well, all of you must have goals that have been set since early. but me..not yet. 
it's MARCH already. but still i set nothing or goals to be exact. still finding what i really want. huhh.. 

You! Back off!

One of my boyfriend...no.no. One of my boy friend at school continuously harassing me. I've no idea the reason he do such things. He's the president of Pre-U club in my school. At first, i kinda..respect him. yes, i did. My thought about he's a good and well-mannered student completely gone after he did this to me. One of my friend told me that he merely interested in my fortune or to be exact because i'm wealthy. (it's not me who said that). Well, it's logic. Okay, now let me tell what he did to me. 

One day, out of the blue he wish me to do my best in exam (because it's exam week) through my friend. Well, i kinda shocked because we never have any conversation and i'm not interested in making friend wit him. but i didn't take it seriously. At first, i thought he just want to be my friend. Okay, i can take it. Second, he asked me to listen to a song which title "Tak Keruan" by Zamani ft. Sharifah.....Sharifah something laa. i don't remember. 

The lyric makes me jumped out of my skin! Seriously. He scared me to death. but still, i didn't take it seriously. i thought he just wanna play with me.  

Third, Form 6 students had a meeting in a meeting room. Before the meeting started, we just chatting around and guess what he did. I did knew he had a pen and a piece of paper with him but i didn't know what he did until one of my friend who seats near him told me he drew a landscape with a signboard in it. In the signboard he wrote my name. Then, one of the teacher saw it and she just smiled.  

Fourth, he played and chatting with his friend in his class. His friend wrote my name on his skin. My name was written on back of his neck, on his hand and it's just so many! Okay...this one creeps me out. 

Fifth, he sent a message to me. ("his name" @ "my name"). that's all. but seriously, this thing scares me.  

Sixth, he did sent a numerous messages to me. and i feel harassed by this.  

Actually, there's another things he did to me. But i refuse to type it all here. he did told my friend that he wants me. Okay, what makes me say he merely wants my fortune? Well, i go to school by car. I mean, i drive by myself. a Nissan S****a. I park my car behind the building of my class. One day, he walked with his friend and he said  to his friend "That's my car." while pointing his finger to MY car. and...what the hell he's doing??! Where's the heck is your car??!! 

I'm agitated by him. Seriously. He might thinks that i'm the one who is easy to play with. No, you sad mental bag! I'm not the one who you can play with! Bugger off from me and from my life! you make my life miserable! Once again you play with me...you know what you'll get!! 

Mind-boggling situation

i had sitting for STPM TOV 2012 last 2 weeks. 

well, everything goes well and smoothly, Alhamdulillah. 

Ouh, ya...scratch that. 

Frankly speaking, i did worst in Arabic. 

It's like an alien language for me.  

just hoping i pass for arabic, nothing much. 

Most of schools in Terengganu had taken TOV exam earlier from my school. 

i've no idea why such thing happened.  

back then, i got a "peruncingan" or "soalan bocor" to be exact.

well, at first i don't even know that my friends sent me a 'soalan bocor' 

for both paper 1 and 2 of History subjects. 

when an exam for history around the corner, 

you know...i was kinda blindingly desperate. 

(i'm a procrastinator and struggle at the end of period) 

i HAD to use the 'peruncingan'. (a 'soalan-bocor' term is too much for me).  

and what a surprise!! i found a whole scheme of answers in the books. 

and idioticallty, i memorized the scheme. 

My thought about i'm a good and smart student never last until I did that. 

Memorizing the scheme was ill-conceived, imbecile and imprudent!  

I've no idea why i had do such a disgrace thing. Seriously, it was deadly embarrassing. 

After the exam, the teachers knew that we all got the 'soalan-bocor'.  

and what astounding me the most is some students cheating in exam 

by bringing together the answer scheme in the period of exam. 

(i thought i'm the only one who use the scheme) 

now, really...I'M DEAD MEAT. 

and...correction. I'm not one of those who cheating in exam. 

i'm merely memorized the scheme BEFORE exam.  

I never dare and I do not have a gut to cheat in exam.  

But still, memorizing the scheme is the most stupid thing. 

The teachers decide that they wouldn't give a mark which means 'O' for the students. 

and what terrifying me the most is if teachers put me with those who cheat. 

of course, SOME of my answers are same with scheme.  

I'm scare to death!  

Lately, i was frantic with worry. 

The whole situation after the examination perturbed me greatly.  

Hoping it has got nothing to do with me.  

-- scare --